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12-5-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Wed Dec 06, 2017 12:01 am

"=_= ..How much f----g pressure do I put on myself to do any of this?..
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Language is horrifying.
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12-5-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Wed Dec 06, 2017 12:56 am

A prayer of indeterminacy.
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12-6-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Wed Dec 06, 2017 6:57 pm

Being at a call center has been ‘humiliating’ ( in the sense of inducing humility—‘simplicity’ .i.e.) to my prideful complication speaking tongue.

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12-6-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Wed Dec 06, 2017 9:22 pm

How glad should I be that I didn't lapse into pornography yesterday?..

Fearful of work tomorrow.
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https://www.vice.com/en_ca/article/dpwj ... -bliss-593

https://es.wikipedia.org/wiki/Distorsi%C3%B3n_cognitiva
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12-7-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Thu Dec 07, 2017 8:29 am

I'm more than my impairment.

What if I wouldn't like to be more than my impairment, though?..


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12-7-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Thu Dec 07, 2017 8:55 am

Here's to me going to a job where I 'wont get my a---' kicked by my lack of familiarity with maneuvering through a certain kind of software, troubleshooting information accurately and efficaciously while not making mistakes with input I have to take from within the intense unpredictability of who might be contacting me, the severity of a situation etc,etc..

There's a difference between not liking a job b/c of 'the nature of it' and there's not liking a job b/c you struggle at doing it...both aren't the same.
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12-9-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Sun Dec 10, 2017 12:52 am

https://everydayfeminism.com/2015/04/empowered-vs-objectified/

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Being open about an inferiority complex.
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12-12-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Mon Dec 11, 2017 11:30 am

If I improve it means I'll have to be among ppl I hate even more.
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My concept of 'boredom' is probably closer to a concept of depression and 'angry-repulsion' than..tedium or 'understimulation'.


Agitations..so much agitation.I crave sex..or at least affection


Anti-jokes and meta-humor at call centers.
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12-11-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Mon Dec 11, 2017 1:07 pm

Effort and trust: I have no ambition, really ’to learn’ at work. I am f——g exhausted at this point, still, by the almost lethal/ toxic like drainage of .. it took me to ‘escape’ post-secondary education as I would have liked to that learning something, being told to learn something efficaciously for/within a sphere of consumeristic pressures and priorities irates me.

Guilt and blame are the same word in Spanish.
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12-11-2017 Entry

Postby sidetrack on Mon Dec 11, 2017 8:57 pm

Me 'on the inside' with an inferiority complex.
How I feel 'on the inside with an inferiority complex.

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